I've always liked repurposing things. You can change it's original use, or just make whatever-it-is look nicer and therefore more valuable- even if the value is sentimental.
This past few months have been tough. There's more month than money most times, and the house seems more messy and chaotic than usual. I've been trying to "fix" things, only to get myself in deeper chaos.
I decided to re-read a really great book, Passionate Housewives Desperate for God. I wasn't through a third of the book before I realized where I went wrong.
I wasn't being a homemaker, I was trying to run my house as a business. I was a boss instead of a wife and mother. Oh I'm still the boss concerning my kids, home care and menus (yet the cats still see me as staff), but what I was doing wasn't honoring my husband or my house. My priorities were all wrong. Yes- the Proverbs 31 woman sells items she makes out of her home, but her husband, children and home should be the top three on her list.
But they certainly weren't on mine.
It was time to repurpose my life.
Today starts with a fresh perspective, a clean slate, and the right attitude. Instead of modifying and tweaking and trying to fix my broken schedules and routines, I'm going to take everything back down "to formula"- this means scrapping the old schedules and taking what hours I have in my day to plan things the way God intended- and only doing business when everything else is done.
I look around my home and find it strangely sparse of any beauty. It's been a year-and-a-half since we moved here, and I still don't have curtains up, and very few pictures on the walls. I'm a quilter, a crafter, as well as cook and homemaker, yet all those little decorative ideas I've had haven't come to fruition.
It's not about decorating the house- it's about making the home welcoming to those that come to visit, and a place of rest and comfort when my husband comes home from work.
We are a very welcoming family, but our house doesn't reflect that with its bare walls and windows.
I've also had ideas for decorating our church, which is also bare of decor since it moved several years ago. I've gotten approval for making art for the walls, but never completed anything- all I have are sketches and notes scribbled in a folder.
All because I went askew of my real purpose.
The kids won't live here forever (I hope), and I can always focus on the business aspect when we're empty-nesters. Business won't be my main focus. I expect some backsliding, only because I know my own nature; but as long as I get back on track and grow in His will, that's all that really matters!